Today marks 90 days clean and sober.. oh and 3 days without cigarettes. All I need to do is take up the lord and I’ll be totally reformed..

I’m still feeling pretty shitty from the Chantix, but since I they are helping me to quit smoking I figure the side effects are worth it.

Side effects include: sleeping all day, terrible nausea, crazy nightmares, constipation, lack of focus, lost the  urge to write.. But it beats lung cancer I guess..

I can’t be certain about the future, but I really have the strongest convictions I’ve ever had about being sober. I think it will stick this time.

I am going to start lowering my dose of Chantix tomorrow and I’m hoping I can get back to writing and being somewhat alert through the day.

Wish me luck!